Thanks to whoever submitted "me" to LFCA! And welcome anyone who is here from there :)
We are continuing to do pretty well considering the news we received Thursday. Of course there have been some more difficult moments that I will write about soon, but I have a deadline at work today, so I don't really have the time right now.
We're going to take this month (CD3 today) completely off. Then we'll see about what (if anything) we want to do in any upcoming cycles (progesterone? clomid? nothing?). I don't really want to talk to my RE (just because- and I know I shouldn't- but I just feel like an idiot for this not working), but I probably should. Maybe I can get a phone consult with him so I don't have to go sit in the exam room with him and a disinterested intern while he explains why he thinks it didn't work (he never does consults in his office).
I am trying not to assure myself that we'll get pregnant on our "break". That is the ultimate tragic set-up, isn't it? But of course that is what Mr. A thinks will happen, and especially with my grandfather's situation, I have had more than several people tell me anecdotal stories about people getting pregnant while someone close to them is passing away. And maybe deep in my heart that is what I think will happen, too, but it is so unbelievable at the same time. But God's ways are not our ways, nor are His thoughts our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9).
We are glad to have this breath of fresh air. I was remarking last night that May has absolutely flown by because of the ivf timeline. I honestly can't believe it is already the 24th. It is refreshing to not have to worry about when is the next shot or next ultrasound. With the exception of two cycles, I have been on follistim since October. We are tired. We are thankful for the chance to just kick back for a while and enjoy a beer (or two) with our fried chicken (which, by the way, how the heck do you get the coating to stay ON the chicken while frying? I dipped in flour, then buttermilk, then flour- and then we used our deep fryer....).
Okay, I really have to get to work. Thank you again for your prayers for us. I love how lengthy my prayer list has become, as I've gotten to know more of you in this community. It is such an honor and a support to pray for each other!!
praying for you :)
ReplyDeleteabout the fried chicken - my mother in law says to not let it sit before you put it in the oil. I used to get all my pieces ready and then drop them and the batter kept falling off.
I'm with your hubby on miracles happening for you soon. Praying. And I am the WORST fried chicken maker... so if you find the secret then let me know. :)
ReplyDeleteI felt embarrassed after my failed IVF too. I had a phone consult with my RE so I won't have to see him in person.
ReplyDeleteTake care and enjoy the break!!
Glad things are going ok. Hope your month off is very relaxing for you.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy the break! It's well deserved and makes all the difference both physically and mentally. It allows you to heal yourself and prepare for whatever you decide is next.
ReplyDeleteGood luck!!
Glad to ready you're doing ok..take all the time you want and pls you're not an idiot for it not working, it's not your fault ok? xxx
ReplyDelete*HUG* So sorry to hear about how things have gone. :-( I was thinking about you while on vacation...hoping to come back to a BFP post by you.
ReplyDeleteDon't feel embarrassed or ashamed. Why do we feel that way? I never did IVF, but I actually felt embarrassed after I had my miscarriage. I still do sometimes, I make an effort not to be ashamed and to go ahead and tell people about my journey.
Fried chicken...I've had some pretty good success with that if I do say so myself! However, I fry mine in a pan. I use chicken tenders and toss them in a ziplock bag with the flour and spices and immediately put them from the bag in hot oil in the pan. Make sure the oil is already hot, you don't want the chicken to sit in it for long without cooking or the breading will fall off. I use flour, salt (just a little), pepper, basil, poultry seasoning, and garlic powder.
Please do not feel embarrassed about your IVF cycle. It was just plain bad luck...hoping you get really lucky during this break with a surprise BFP. Thinking of you!!
ReplyDeleteI'm in the miracle camp! Maybe a month off to relax is just what you need to recharge yourself. Enjoy it! Will continue to pray for you!
ReplyDeleteEnjoy this month with your hubby. Praying for you =). Big hug!!
ReplyDelete(((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteEnjoy the much needed break. I'm right there with you.
Still sending hugs and prayers your way, my friend. Enjoy the break as best you can, and above all, don't give up hope!
ReplyDeleteA, I'm so sorry about the BFN :(. I've been absent this week, and just read your last post.
ReplyDeleteI don't want to be one of those people that says Surely, you'll get pregnant on a break, but I really do hope that's true in any case.