I think there is a mass outbreak of pregnancies. No, I'm serious! My friend in the neighborhood is pregnant. My neighbor's son's wife is pregnant. My friend's friend is pregnant. Several bloggers I follow/lurk are pregnant. My sister is probably accidentally pregnant again (pure speculation). If you are pregnant and reading this, you better spill the beans so I can add you to the list!
I wonder sometimes if anyone who is still waiting to conceive or become a mom thinks my posts about (now secondary, I guess?) infertility are completely ungrateful and lame. I definitely feel guilty wondering why it seems like I'm the only one longing for another baby and not seeing two lines.
But then there are also times like tonight. We'd finished dinner, with the dishes piled high in the sink (a sure sign of an excellent meal, no?). Lately I've just been leaving the cleanup till after M is in bed- playtime is too precious with the three of us to waste it washing pots and pans. We were chasing, doing puzzles, tickling, and hiding- and I was saying to myself, this is awesome. We can focus 100% of our attention on her, play however and with whatever she wants, read her stories at bedtime, and come downstairs and clean up the kitchen and kick back. No hectic timing of feeding a baby and eating our regular dinner all together, no double teaming bedtime for two kids, and when she's asleep, it's time to clean up the kitchen, and then time for just us. Of course I'd give up the entire last sentence for the chance to give her a sibling, but we are head over heels crazy for her, and that's as good as a sibling, right?
Ok, I hope I'm not commenting at the wrong moment here (I'm pregnant) but I've been leaving the dishes too. Playing with Will is too precious, like you said. I have a lot of conflicting feelings about what's going to happen to our relationship when we have the baby. I wouldn't change it, but time with JUST HIM is a really sweet and wonderful gift. I get what you're saying and as dumb as it may sound, I believe that time with your only child can be a gift as big as a sibling. I don't want it to come off as "that's easy for her to say", but I don't know what it's going to be like and all I know is, it won't be the same, and there's a bit of sadness to that! So I get where you're coming from and I totally agree.
ReplyDeleteI'm right there with you! I don't dwell on it now as much as I used to. You never know what God may have in store for our families!
ReplyDeleteI was so sure this was going to be a pregnancy announcement! If it matters, I am not pregnant :).
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to drop by and say that I don't think you sound ungrateful at all. It's refreshing to hear someone being open and honest with how they really feel.
ReplyDeleteI hear you! There IS mass outbreak of pregnancies lately. Family, friends, acquaintances. They are all pregnant. Every single one of them.
ReplyDeleteEveryone thinks it is going to be so easy to get baby #2 now that you have had one, and they are very liberal with letting you know that.
I grew up as an only child, and it kinda sucked, so I really want to be able to give my son a sibling. However, I am thankful every day for the miracle that he is.
I hear you. I know tons of people having babies and we are still waiting on baby.
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