Almost There

This week has been pretty busy at work/home/volunteering...thus the lack of posting!! Now it's time for me to catch up on everyone!!

Here is the gist: yesterday I felt like total crap. The second day of a headache, exhausted, impatient, and just a general dragging feeling. When I sit or lay down, it feels like I weigh 800 lbs- like there is this huge force of gravity holding me down. Mr. A had to help one of his buddies move a ginormous fish tank, and in his absence, I fell asleep at 730pm and didn't wake up till 930pm when he called to say he was on his way home. I felt sort of hungry, but nothing really sounded good.

At 13dpo, a girl doesn't take feeling like crap lightly, you know? Nor do I take a temp of 98.61 on 13dpo, and 98.62 at 14dpo (today) lightly, either. (Mind you, I haven't been temping at all, so I have nothing before 13dpo to compare that to, but I was just curious....but when I was temping, I only hit 98.6 once in my whole temping career and it was on 11dpo and it fell like a rock the very next day). And I would like to note that I never got a headache on 9dpo (which had been the norm), and even those past headaches did not last more than an afternoon.

Too bad I had to pee at 3am, so I wasn't sure if it'd be concentrated enough for a positive test at 630am ;-) (Plus I am a chicken anyway. Good excuse for not testing, huh?)

I am really trying hard not to run away with all of these symptoms. It is pretty tough. I have so much hope.

But stupid doubt creeps in and makes me even more worried that even though I feel like this, it's probably just the progesterone supplements, and that the test tomorrow (or Friday, haha) will be negative anyway.

After I spoke at the church on Sunday, this lady comes up to me to sign up to be a volunteer, and she was telling me that before her family moved here, they had looked up our center and wanted to make that part of their lives, and that the previous night, she had laid in bed thinking that she should call our center to get more information, and how, when I spoke about our center the very next morning, all she could think was "Wow, God's timing is so cool."

Yes, yes it is.

Have you ever had one of those experiences? Where all of a sudden everything lines up and works out and is crystal clear and you feel like angels are about to appear in the heaven's? I haven't. I pray that God might bless me with one of those soon (like, you know, tomorrow, when the test is positive!!!). Or even if it isn't positive tomorrow, that we'd be blessed with crystal clear discernment. I want the last line of my testimony about this journey to be "Wow, God's timing is so cool."

I know He won't disappoint.