Life Changing: There are two lines this time

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Yes, you read that correctly.

I took a test this morning, and there are two lines. For the first time in 3+ years of trying. I am still kind of speechless.

Back in October, I was emailing back and forth with a friend of mine (are you still reading, SG?), and through our discussion, I came to read Isaiah 66:14. I thought it was such a perfect verse, and I knew I wanted to memorize it so that I could pray first thing whenever I found that we were going to be expecting a baby. Here is what it says:

You shall see,
Your heart will rejoice,

Your body will flourish like the grass,

And all shall know that the hand of the Lord is upon His servants.


So I wrote it on a piece of paper and stuck it to my work computer monitor. Every day since then, I've repeated those words and imagined praying them after getting a positive test. Many days, it seemed like that day would never get here.

This morning, I got that opportunity. I couldn't even do anything else. I sat on the edge of the tub, holding the positive test, tears in my eyes, and praying thanksgivings and repeating this verse.

I went to get the Harley baby pj's that I bought probably 4 years ago, and I woke up a groggy Mr. A to tell him the news. Even in our sleepiness, the excitement was evident and the pups came running upstairs with their tails wagging!! It was very cute. It is a moment I will never forget.

I am going to get some blood drawn for HCG and progesterone, but I am having some symptoms (bb tenderness, some tiredness, headaches if I don't drink enough water), and I am trusting my body to know what to do. I think I am going to order the circle+bloom pregnancy series soon! I loved their natural cycle program!!

It is very surreal to be here. After all the meds, all the procedures, and all the tests that failed last year, here we are, having taken nary a medication since October. We have done nothing for the last three months but eat healthy (natural & organic), take vitamins (wheatgrass, royal jelly, vitamin D3, CoQ10, and prenatal), focus on being happy (yoga, meditation) with what we have (and not pine for what we don't), and go to acupuncture. And somehow, our miracle is here. The old fashioned way. Our precious baby is due on October 4!

We are praying like crazy that our baby is happy and healthy and that we will have a happy and healthy full-term pregnancy.

I have so many reflections. On pregnancy after infertility. On this timing. On what to do with telling my college friends. On how it feels to cry happy tears in church.

I know that I have a few new readers and that I'm new to reading several of you, and I know everybody says this, but I hope you will still stop by, but I understand if it's too much sometimes. I will document my pregnancy just as I have documented my infertility, not with surveys and objectivity, but with sensitivity, longing, and spirituality. I want to try to add another page with any questions I have that specifically relate to babies/pregnancy. I will still do Food on Friday, and I will still talk about our pups.

As Whitney graciously commented recently, one thing I love about my blog (title especially), is that I try to emphasize that this is all a journey. I think it will be applicable to almost any stage of my life, and I fully imagine I will be full of infertility-related reflections during this new leg of my life's journey.

One of my best friends just triggered for her first femera cycle. I texted her first thing!! She has said over and over that our positive test has given her so much hope. That is what I pray for all my readers. I hope that in whatever stage of infertility (or life, in general) you are in, our journey- our "all the way"- will give you hope that all of your heartache will be redeemed someday!!!

57 comments:

Rain Child said...

OMG! This is great news! Congrats!

Jessica said...

OMG....CONGRATS!!!

Bridget said...

Oh A!!!! I am so happy for you!!! Congratulations!

Adam and Julia said...

Oh My Goodness!!!!!!! What amazing news!!!!! Miracles do happen. Congratulations!!! I am so happy for you. It is the greatest feeling when you finally see the second line. Enjoy this time! You deserve it.

ventingvagina said...

OMG!!!!! Are you serious?! I am SO excited for you! Omgomgomg! Congrats! Yay! It's your turn!!!

Rach said...

Woah!! Congrats!!!

AL said...

wow, wow, wow!!! I am so incredibly happy for you!! What an amazing surprise!!

Becky said...

My jaw literally fell open when I read this in my reader, WOW!!! I have tears of joy for you in my eyes. I am so very excited for you. I have prayed for you since I first found your blog and I will keep praying for you through this pregnancy. Congratulations!!! Amazing!

Dea.nna said...

OH MY GOODNESS!!!! I am so completely overjoyed for you. I am praising God with you and praying for a happy and healthy pregnancy...you deserve it! Congrats!!!

Johanna said...

Congratulations!!! :)

Ann - Building a Nest said...

AHHHHHHHH!!!! Congratulations!

Pez said...

I am so excited to see those beautiful words on your blog today.

I look forward to following you all the way.

TTFN,
Pez

AplusB said...

Oh my goodness! What WONDERFUL news! So excited and happy for you, A! What a beautiful miracle for you and your family!

Ask or Imagine said...

I have not commented in a long time but I have never stopped following your journey, and I'm so very happy for you!! How amazing!!! Can't wait to follow your new adventure!!

Lisa said...

Oh my goodness...what an amazing surprise!! Congratulations!!!

Katie said...

Oh my gosh!!! Congratulations!!!!! I am so happy for you. <3

Jenny said...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Praying and praying for a sticky little one in there! Oh I'm so stinkin' happy for you!!!!

Holly said...

YAYYYYY! I started reading a few weeks during ICLW (but totally didn't leave a comment...ha, sorry!) and have been really drawn to your blog. I'm ecstatic for you and your husband, and can't even express the excitement I feel for you. I'm still getting over my own surprise from this past Tuesday, and it seems we're due a day apart! I'm so, SO happy for you.

WantWait&Pray said...

OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!! SO SO SO incredibly happy for you! The best thing is within reach, may you and your hubby be blessed with a healthy pregnancy, baby(ies) and life from this point on....get ready for the ride!!!

JC said...

Wow, congratulations! You are definitely one of the ones I've always been praying for. I'm so happy for you!

Amanda said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!

Mrs. Lydon said...

I am beyond happy for you both!!! Enjoy every single second. Ill be praying for your pregnancy to be a healthy and happy one. HUGS

the misfit said...

W.O.W. Congratulations!

Rambler said...

WOW! That is so exciting for you both. AMAZING. You're the third urban legend in the infertility world that I've seen in the last 2 months. I am speechless. So thrilled for you. Looking foward to that beta!!

TeeJay said...

Praise be to God! What a miracle you have been blessed with. I'm in shock but do very happy for you. I don't even know what to say except that I hope you have a wonderful pregnancy. I will still be following along...you can't get rid of me that easily. :-)

Annie Marie said...

I am so thrilled to hear you have a precious blessing on the way! Praying for a wonderful pregnancy for you!

Rachel said...

AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! SO EXCITING!!!!!!!!! Praying for a wonderful happy safe fantastic pregnancy!!!! Praise the Lord!!!!

Josey said...

OMG A - this is such awesome news!! I'm so excited for you guys!

Melissa said...

Yay! That is so awsome and amazing! Congrats!

Lindsey said...

Congrats! This is amazing news! Praying that God will continue to be with you as you start this new journey!

mrskateski said...

That is amazing. I am so happy for you! I'll be sending lots and lots of prayers your way!

Jessica said...

Holy cow! I am so excited to read this!!! You kept the "hope" and look at what happened...so very happy for you:)

Hillary said...

Really?!?! Two lines?!?! Praise God!! So very happy for you, and so very thankful to God. WOW!

xoxo to you and baby A :)

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Ashley said...

Soooo excited for you!!

RMCarter said...

Congradulations my bloggy friend!!! What wonderful news! :) A miracle straight from God. I am so very happy for you!

Thankful said...

God is good! Congratulations!!!!!!!

Maegan said...

OH MY WORD, A! That is the last thing I expected to read this morning and I am SO HAPPY!!!

And here I was excited to read about your dinner party! Congratulations, God bless, and a million prayers coming your way! :) :D

Melissa said...

Speechless I tell you! Praise God :) I am so very, very happy for you guys. Agh!

Ashley said...

That's great news to read on a Monday morning! Congrats to you and your husband!!! Praying for a healthy pregnancy!

Jane said...

I just KNEW it would happen for you soon!!! I just knew it! Congratulations! You've been waiting for this for so long, and it's finally yout turn. I'm so happy for you. God's plan was there for you all along.

Praying for Hope said...

Woo hoo! Crossing fingers for an uneventful nine months!

Leah said...

OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Congrats, congrats, congrats!!! And where is the picture. :) For some reason I love positive test pictures. :)

I'm so happy for you. You deserve this! Everyone deserves this. Don't feel guilty as I have no doubt that you also want this joy for everyone.
I am beyond happy for you. Congrats, congrats, congrats! :)

Amy said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!! I'm so happy for you!! YAYYYYYYY!

Coco said...

YAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!! I'm sitting and sobbing. So happy for you! Amazing blessings! I love that it happened without "medical" help! God wanted to claim this as all HIS miracle! *hugs*

Ms. Pollywog said...

Congratulations!!! You sound so GOOD.
"I am trusting my body to know what to do. "
I could take a page from your book!

I LOVE the verse that you posted! PERFECT!
Thanks for stopping by my blog and congratulating me! It's so amazing to connect with so many great people!

http://funnylittlepollywogs.com

Glass Case of Emotion said...

Great news! Fingers crossed for your blood work to look fantastic!

runnyyolk said...

Oh my god, congratulations! That is such wonderful news! Yay, yay, yay!!!

Michelle said...

Just found your blog off of another blog I follow. First off, congratulations! Secondly, I wanted to ask you about the vitamins/supplements you are one. Did you research on your own and decide to take them or did a Dr. recommend it? I'm open to taking natural supplements but don't know where to start! Thank you!

suchagoodegg said...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so so so so so happy for you!!!!!!!!! Enjoy the Cloud 9-ness of this amazing news, it really never goes away. :) xoxoxo

Anna said...

WOWEEEE!!! Awesome news!!!

BelowAverageAthlete said...

Best News! You made my day! Congrats!! I am so happy for you.

Erica said...

Wow!!!! I hadn't checked your blog in a few days and so when I opened it just now I saw your beta post and just about jumped out of my skin! This is seriously the BEST news!! Congratulations to you and Mr. A and praise God for the miracle growing inside of you! Happy, happy, happy day :-)

callmemama said...

Holy crap, I leave for just a few days and come back to THIS!

Congratulations!!!!!

Whitney said...

Yay! I really am so happy for you! I hadn't checked your blog for a couple of days, so when I saw the news I was completely surprised in the best possible way. I literally did a little dance in my chair. I am sending prayers for a healthy pregnancy and baby your way!

Jess said...

Congratulations! I did just begin following you but look forward to hearing all about your pregnancy journey. You are so blessed!

~Jess
http://bringingyoumorethanasong.blogspot.com/

~S said...

A, Congratulations to you and your hubby! I realized I never commented on this post, but I have been praying for the 3 of you! So happy for you!

Kacey said...

I'm so happy for you!!!! Congratulations!!!!!! Praise God :) god is not slow in keeping His promises...as we know slowness.