Meds question for everyone!

My good friend K is having a quandary, and she is asking for your expertise!

 

She is trying to get post-ovulation bleeding under control.  She has had her normal 7dpo progesterone checked, and it was 20 something.  She has tried taking prometrium orally (prescribed by her obgyn), but it did not fix the bleeding at all.  Recently she went to her RE, and her RE suggested that she try Endometrim during the LP.  K goes to order the prescription and it was $360 A MONTH!!!

 

She called her RE and asked for prometrium suppositories instead, and her RE said that she does not prescribe those, as prometrium was formaulated to take orally (which I have never heard, but of course I do not know everything...but my RE is in love with prometrium suppositories!), while Endometrim was specifically made to be a suppository. 

 

I wondered if the RE wouldn't mind paying K's $360 a month bill  ;-)  Haha.

 

ANYWAY, if you have taken Endometrim or Prometrium, please weigh in.  Do you know why your RE prescribed either?  Have you read that one is better than the other?  Have you been on each of them at one time or another and have opinions about one or the other's effectiveness?

 

Thanks for giving us your experiences!!

An Open Letter

Dear God,
I have half a mind to be pissed at You. (The other half is firmly entrenched in the camp that You know some amazing joyful better-than-I-can-imagine plans that will be perfect and then all this crap will all be worth it and that you know my heartache and want to comfort me and even Jesus cried....) But seriously. The first half of mind thinks that's a bunch of baloney.

I am fine with not being pregnant. I have never seen a positive test, so I don't even know what I'm missing, so being not pregnant is the norm for me. But, if You are not going to work some cosmic miracle with me to get a baby inside, please stop leading me IN THE 2WW, NO LESS, to Scriptures that tell me that You make the barren woman a mother, and as old generations pass, new ones come about. Because that is just awful for my already shattered broken dying heart. Because then, when I test and see one pathetic line, I get angry at myself for believing and hoping that somehow that was your communication to me. I feel like an idiot for trusting in Your Word about all this infertility garbage. Because Your Word never says, "The barren woman kept getting strung along until she had a hysterectomy so she wouldnt have to deal with that crap anymore" or "I will take the desire of motherhood out of your heart so you can get on with your life". All it says is that the barren woman will be a joyful mother, and that seems like quite the empty promise to me.

And, since we have prayed to have hearts for adoption, and you have not placed that with us EITHER, am I supposed to pray to have you take away my desire for motherhood? Am I really supposed to be 100% happy with my admittedly phenominal husband and precious dogs? While, in the meantime, You bless crack addicts and people who leave their kids running amuck without supervision and all my friends and family with babies that they didn't even try for and all my bloggy friends with treatment babies that I dreamt of? Or, ooh, maybe they tried 4 WHOLE months and then You decided their weary hearts had had enough, and boom, a baby ends up in their house? How do You suppose I deal with that while I'm wanting to be a mom, and I am FAILING?

I really thought you and Grandpa would be an amazing team up there. But it looks like nothing has changed for me down here. Except that one half of my brain has become so fed up with this infertility awfulness that it's become pissed at You, much to the chagrin to the other half of my brain. Because I can't go on trying forever. At some point, this has to stop. I always thought it would be with the birth of our baby, but now I'm not so sure. Maybe it will be with the birth of my sister's baby, you know, the month after whenever they decide they want to try.

So anyway, thanks for nothing.... in the baby department. (My "other half brain" made me write that qualifier as it is quivering in its shoes that God will strike me down for being so obnoxious.) Can't wait to see what grand bunch of zero happens next month, too.

Sincerely,
A

Does this work?

Wow, I miss having a laptop. My phone works okay for typing, but it's much easier/faster to type on a full-size keyboard!

And I apologize to all of you because commenting from my phone is pretty time-involved, so (shrug), I haven't been doing much at all of that since Thursday. I still read your blogs though! Shout-out to Mission:Motherhood on the surprise BFP that we all wish would happen to us.

This 2ww has been the looooooooooongest one in a long time, and darned if I'm still just 11dpo. I mean, in a perfect world this 2ww will continue till, oh, May or so, but I'm skeptical. I have pretty much ZERO syptoms (other than the ones that of course are never actually symptoms), except continuing to be bloated. I am going to be pretty pissed if I start a new cycle and find out that I just got fat all of a sudden.

Operation wheatgrass is going really well, actually. When mixed with juice, I actually put a few ice cubes in there and sip it like a regular drink! (I tried it with water one more time and it was equally as bad as the first time.) I actually have found myself looking forward to my two glasses per day, if you can believe it. (Relative to getting in two servings of the tablets.) It must be doing something good if my body is asking for it!

I hope all the changes that we've been trying to make towards more natural/organic living will pay off with conception of a healthy baby. I know that tons of people eat big macs every day, with nary a vegetable, and have 8 kids, but I feel really good about making the healthy changes we have made in our diet and products we use in our home. Whenever we get a new laptop, I'm going to celebrate by doing a giveaway of one of my new favorites!

notes

so yesterday as i was innocently writing an email, our laptop decided to crash. :-(

good thing i have this phone!

you will be relieved to know that when mixing my wheatgrass powder with v8 fusion, it is pretty much normally drinkable! i know, you couldnt sleep last night worrying about how that was going!

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ever since my grandpa passed away, i have been really bad at keeping in touch with my irl friends. it is a super busy time for me at work, and having two dogs is no lazy thing, and it's not even like i have a ton of friends, but i really want to be better at keeping in touch. how do you do it? are you a phone or letter or email person? i think at this point i'd consider myself an email person, but that is probably somewhat unsocial of me...

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(complaint ahead) yesterday some kid in our neighborhood was revving his dumb sooped up car engine over and over for like half an hour, and it really made our dogs crazy. this morning, bert was still preoccupied with pacing around the yard listening for the engine noise. he wouldnt even play with banana!! i want to wring that kid's neck and add an ever lovin muffler to his loser mobile!! mr. a says i should lighten up. ugh.

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i am 8dpo and SO bloated. have been ever since ovulation actually. i am tired of my favorite shorts not fitting. body, are we pregnant? if not, a heads up would be great because i could really do without the progesterone supposotories for the next week...

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Choking no more

Guess what? If you mix the wheatgrass powder with 8oz of sweet tea, it smells like chocolate milk!

HA!!

I think a side effect of wheatgrass might be delusion. I promise it smelled like chocolate milk! And I did several big gulps instead of trying to "drink" it. Worked muuuuuch better :) I hope I didn't cancel out the effects of the wheatgrass with the sweet tea. I fully intend to get myself some V8 Fusion (my favorite juice) to mix it with for real....

As long as another side effect of wheatgrass is a healthy baby, I'll gladly do this twice a day!!!

Choke!

So, you may remember that I'm taking wheatgrass to try to naturally balance my body/magically cure my infertility/add nutrients/make great eggies.

And up until now, I'd been taking the tablets- SEVEN per serving, and I tried to do two servings per day! I am not a bad pill-swallower, so it wasn't a big deal, although they don't exactly taste like cherry baby aspirin!!!

And lo and behold, I finished my jar! So I had to get another jar. Because, although I didn't conceive the first month taking the wheatgrass, my friend was taking it three months before she conceived. So I better keep this going. Can't hurt- I need more dark greens in my diet anyway!

But this time I wanted to get the powder, because I hear it is easier for your system to absorb and not as processed. So I ordered this bad boy, and went to make up my first glass of the stuff this morning.

Wow.

Talk about the tablets and going to eat some grass out of your front yard. That is nothing! Why don't you make a grass puree?! Ha! I took my first swig and thought, how in the dickens am I going to ever drink a glass of this twice a day?! My second swig was followed by near upchuck. Honestly. I think my problem was that I was drinking too slowly. My next few swigs were kind of like big gulps- right down the hatch, and I finished the glass. Whew. Time to go back to my fake (herbal) coffee (which I am also trying, to avoid the caffeine- so far my favorite flavor is hazlenut, big surprise)!

I am going to have to get some amazing juice or something to mix with this stuff. Water is bearable, but barely.

I definitely want to continue taking it- there are alot of health benefits, infertility aside. I think making smoothies and masking the wheatgrass therein is going to be too much effort on my part (says the girl who works at home). I mean, I'd have to drag out the blender, make sure I have enough fruit and milk on hand for two a day, blah blah blah. Plus it says that ideally you should take it by itself to allow your body to absorb all of it instead of competing with other foods.

Here's hoping I don't choke on my next glass, too!

Speaking of havens...

I love to cook. Like, looooooove to cook. And since Mr. A is building us a new coffee table (in progress picture below), he's been working really hard in the garage each night and not really finishing whatever stage until like 9pm. So it's been alot of sandwiches and wraps and hot dogs for us lately. (But did I tell you that I found hot dogs made of non-hormoned cows in the natural food section? Natural hot dogs, haha! Is that an oxymoron?)



But I decided on Saturday that we should have a proper meal, and we'd had cabbage rolls (two leaves of cabbage stuffed with ground meat, rice, onions, peppers, and garlic) after my grandpa's funeral, which Mr. A loved, so I gave them a try! They are a traditional slovak food- here they are all wrapped up in the dutch oven:



Also traditional is mashed potatoes, but those are not Mr. A's favorites (I know, I can't believe it either), so I made potato latkes instead. Also my first time making those, and I am going to have to make them again!!! The best part is that we had some left over for breakfast Sunday!! Here is Mr. A's plate (with a slice of my whole wheat bread):



Of course no nice dinner can be without a dessert, so I made a mixed berry pie, using OUR raspberries and organic blueberries and strawberries. As we were eating it, we were both wondering why I hadn't made this pie before, it was DELISH!!


I am so glad I can cook yummy things for us to eat, that aren't all pre-packaged and preservative-laden. I think it contributes to making our home whole and healthy and happy. While I know cooking can be laborious for some, it is very relaxing to me- I put on a movie or the tv or the radio and just go to town with my recipes! Throwing dinner parties was always one of my favorite things, before all (and by "all", I mean our few) friends went off and had kids. Need to have the neighbors over or something- I am dying to host a bunch of people again!!