I want to post about our changing childcare situation, but I think I will need to wait until it is all resolved first. Would appreciate prayers that we make the best decision for M....
(I know, total waste of a post, but I didn't want to leave you hanging that I might be with child again- AS IF!!!)
What goes through the mind along the lengthy path of (secondary, now) infertility
My first Gender Reveal
Sunday, September 01, 2013
Well, my friend is having another girl. The party was pretty fun- although M is very social, in new settings, she needs a minute (or several or lots) to take everything in, and it was no different showing up at a party with 10 other kids running full tilt. But she eventually warmed up a little, and of course she enjoyed the pink pudding-filled cupcake :)
The only time I felt like grabbing her and running out of the house was when it was just M and I in their living room. She had gone in to play with some toys they have in there, to get a little time to herself after being bulldozed by an especially excited 18-month old boy. I hear my friend and two other ladies in the kitchen:
"I hear so-and-so is pregnant again."
"Yes, she was also pregnant as the same time as me last time."
{lots of squealing}
"ooooOOoooooh, isn't it so fun that everyone is pregnant again!!!!"
"Yes, I can't believe it happens that way!!!"
Not for everyone, folks. I am just glad I was in the living room. Even though only two tears tried to surface, it may have been awkward if I'd been in there with all the multiple-child mamas.
Of course I totally recognize that I'm beyond lucky to have been pregnant once, so I could have something to say when one of the women asked me later, "So which midwife delivered your daughter?", when I answered, cue more glee, "ooOOOooo, she delievered my second son!! Isn't she greeeeeeaaatttt?"
Eventually it was bedtime, and we walked home and I felt a little quiet. I am so, so grateful to have M and be able to be a mom. So many days I thought my dream would never come true. I might not get to experience another pregnancy, but I will always have the memories of carrying Maryanne, and the privilege of being her mom from here on out.
The only time I felt like grabbing her and running out of the house was when it was just M and I in their living room. She had gone in to play with some toys they have in there, to get a little time to herself after being bulldozed by an especially excited 18-month old boy. I hear my friend and two other ladies in the kitchen:
"I hear so-and-so is pregnant again."
"Yes, she was also pregnant as the same time as me last time."
{lots of squealing}
"ooooOOoooooh, isn't it so fun that everyone is pregnant again!!!!"
"Yes, I can't believe it happens that way!!!"
Not for everyone, folks. I am just glad I was in the living room. Even though only two tears tried to surface, it may have been awkward if I'd been in there with all the multiple-child mamas.
Of course I totally recognize that I'm beyond lucky to have been pregnant once, so I could have something to say when one of the women asked me later, "So which midwife delivered your daughter?", when I answered, cue more glee, "ooOOOooo, she delievered my second son!! Isn't she greeeeeeaaatttt?"
Eventually it was bedtime, and we walked home and I felt a little quiet. I am so, so grateful to have M and be able to be a mom. So many days I thought my dream would never come true. I might not get to experience another pregnancy, but I will always have the memories of carrying Maryanne, and the privilege of being her mom from here on out.
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infertility,
non-IF people
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