I've been meaning to update since last Friday, when we held the neighborhood potluck and raised over $1000 for the family who lost their home!!! There are a few neighbors who I know personally who didn't come for extremely lame reasons, and so while I'm disappointed in them, we had an overall perfect turnout (not too big, not too small), the family felt surrounded by supportive friends, and we even met some young families in the neighborhood that we can now hang out with!! Win, win, win, for sure :) Thank you for praying for the event and for the family :)
A few days ago, I was talking to one of our neighbors, and he said that someone remarked to him that I was just glowing during the dinner. And I think I probably was, because throwing parties is totally in my element, but the word "glowing" has really tough connotations for an infertile/infertility survivor. I mean, other than maybe a bonfire, I don't know any other common use of the word except to describe a pregnant person. And it just brought me back to when my acupuncturist described me as glowing before I ever knew I was pregnant with M. And since the potluck was a couple days before I think I ovulated, I'm now in the early 2ww, and that comment, along with the most pronounced "symptoms" I've had since my cycle returned in August, it totally playing tricks with me. Did you know there is a thing called Early Pregnancy Factor? As if infertiles need any more encouragement that they can feel symptoms before implantation, hahaahahahahaha.
But you know, we are so in love with Maryanne, that if our family is the three of us, we are totally and completely happy. I've been praying lately for the wisdom to know when enough is enough, as far as asking the Lord to expand our family again.
But holy bloating, there better be a good reason for it ;-)