cd11 u/s

First thing's first, go PRAISE THE LORD for Grace in My Heart's baby boy!!! Oh, and while you're at it, don't forget to cheer her on, too, by leaving a comment!! If you're not familiar with her story, read her links on their background- they experienced a failed adoption last year but have continued to trust in God for the expansion of their family!!! Glory to God!!

Thanks for all your comments on yesterday's post... I have actually written several times to N in the last year something to the effect of "What's your favorite thing about motherhood?" (to try to get her talking) and "I'm not sure where you'd like our friendship to go? But I'd love to still get together..." at the end of the email, but she has never addressed it and responded only with similar-style emails as what she sent yesterday. And boy would I love to have the guts to write what misfit suggested!!! I just don't know if I can handle being the one to say that without specific instruction from her to do so... it would break my heart to be the unfriendly one, I guess!!

I realize she might be struggling with various things right now, or maybe she is busy (probably), but come on, we used to talk about ewcm patterns! And now she can't tell me that being a mom is harder than it looks? Maybe she doesn't want to complain, but I think if I were in her shoes, I'd probably say something like "well, some days being a mom is tough. I don't want to complain because I know you would give anything to be a mom, but I really appreciate you asking. I'd be happy to talk more about it with you, as long as you'd be okay with hearing the nitty gritty!" Or something. (Aren't we all perfect in hypothetical "someone else's shoes" situations?)

Had an u/s this afternoon, and it went pretty well. I have 1 16mm and 1 18mm follicle, both on my right ovary. If you're paying attention, you'll notice the small follie I had on the left is pretty much not a contender anymore. I am not sure why only the two have been growing, or why they are not growing quite as fast as they probably should be. However, I was thinking/praying about this on my way out of the RE's office, and I got a feeling that they are doing exactly what God would have them do. I felt comforted by this thought, and any time on my drive home that I began to wonder what is up (especially on 150iu instead of 125iu), I was reminded that this cycle is in God's hands, and He knows what He's doing. I pretty much feel that there is a reason that only the two are growing strong- maybe they need to be the only ones to be the best darn eggies they can be, and I'm hoping God has big plans for both of them (since I'm being honest here!). Or maybe God is protecting me from OHSS or something not-conception related. So if you could pray that they will continue to mature and that if it's God's will, that they'd become our little ones in August, that would be awesome!!

So since the follies are not quite where my RE wants them size-wise (I still have a beautiful uterus and lining!!), I'll trigger tomorrow night about 930pm- any tips on mixing the trigger?!?!, and the IUI will be at Sunday at 930am!!

I also had the blessing to have lunch with my friend and her little girl!! Mr. A and I are going to try to join them at their place for some college football on Saturday afternoon. I am so thankful for this dear friend- I'll call her O from now on :) I am sad in that I don't think they'll be here much beyond 2 years, but we plan to make the most of her time here!

I've had more pre-ovulation headaches this cycle, but I experimented with various headache-fending-off methods and found that green tea worked the best to keep them as much in the background as possible. I know we will have to stop BD'ing 24 hours before the IUI prep Sunday morning, but I would also like to add that the lack of worrying about timing that "activity" has been refreshing this cycle... it has been great to just go with the spark of the moment instead of wondering if we do it today, if it will be okay to do tomorrow, or if we should not do it today so tomorrow will be good, or if we should have two days in a row... hahahahahaha.....

And my sisters and I are trying to plan our annual Christmas shopping trip!! YAH!!!