Pigs are NOT flying

Friday, January 07, 2011

But I am again having mid-morning yuck (although it is admittedly better than yesterday's). I think it must be the juice (peach mango v8 fusion instead of pomegranate blueberry v8 fusion) to wash down the royal jelly.

It is kind of sad. I think Mr. A was really thinking that the test would be +. He even asked me this morning when I got out of the bathroom- and he is never conversational in the mornings!!! Alas, history has repeated itself. I think it is just hilarious that I took at test on CD11. HA! I mean, that is just ridiculous!!

It is also weird. Any other cycle, I'd be thinking way forward instead of backwards. As in, it's almost potential ovulation time!! Not, gee I wonder if we are all snuggly if it will hurt the baby! Serious mindbending, I tell you.

Also because (BIG ANNOUNCEMENT HERE), we have decided that we are tentatively interested in pursuing embryo donation (embryo adoption).

WHAT?

Ha! I know, given my swearing off of infertility treatments in 2011, you might have to read that line a few times for it to sink in.

We have certain hesitations and reservations about traditional adoption at this point (although so many are called and blessed by traditional adoption, most recently (hopefully) Waiting for Something Beautiful! go give her a virtual hug and prayer!), but there aren't too many aspects of embryo adoption that we don't have peace with. So, we are looking into it- both at our old lab (to see if they have any donated embryos) and with a national agency. Of course the national agency would be more expensive, but from what I have researched, the wait time can be longer with a specific clinic because they don't have as big of a pool. I don't think there is a reason we can't be on the waiting list at our clinic and apply with the national agency, so that is what we're planning on doing.

It is kind of exciting!

Although we ourselves would have chosen limited fertilization if we had had more eggs (in an effort to not freeze any of our embies), there are almost 500k frozen embies in storage right now in the US. We are praying that if this is how God will expand our family, He will motivate the right couple to decide to donate their embies to us!

But this is why it's sad: Last night when we were going to sleep, we had quite the cutest session of pillow talk we've had in a while. Mr. A goes, you know, I hear that when people turn their attention to adoption, that is when we get pregnant.

Oh dear, sweet Mr. A.

Praying that our resolve to "live well in 2011" continues and our 2011 theme comes true, no matter if our family is any bigger in December or not!

17 comments:

JC said...

I'm sorry about the BFN...even if you were expecting it. I'm really excited that you guys are thinking of embryo adoption! I know something will work out for you guys. It has to!

Melissa said...

IF plays ALL sorts of mind games and it gets tiring. I'm sorry A.

I think the idea and the fact that you guys are looking into embryo adoption is quite exciting!

Praying for you guys!

Johanna said...

Oh, I hate those mind tricks! Sorry about that. :(

Praying as you consider embie adoption!

Rain Child said...

I hope this new path leads you to your family!! My fingers are crossed for you!

Coco said...

Oh hun. So sorry about the stupid BFN. They always suck. But I am very excited that you might be looking into emby adoption. Good luck! :)

callmemama said...

Wow, I'm really excited to hear more about embryo adoption! Glad you have a plan for 2011 :).

AL said...

WHOA, huge, huge news! Very excited for you and will be praying for you and mr a as you both start on this new path.

so sorry for the BFN. :-(

ventingvagina said...

what an exciting step! i'm looking forward to following along!

TeeJay said...

A BFN sucks whenever it happens...even on CD10 :-). I am very interested in your prospect to adopt/accept an embryo. I think it's a wonderful idea. And a great way to expand your family through "adoption" but still getting to be pregnant. I can't wait to hear more about it.

Anna said...

YAY for EA!!! Embryo adoption is such a wonderful thing! Let me know if you have any questions about the process. :)

Becky said...

Those mind tricks are one of the things I hate most about infertility. I think I actually tested around ovulation time once.

I am so incredibly excited for you and Mr. A regarding the embryo adoption. I am praying and hoping with you!

Jennifer said...

So sorry about the BFN. ugh! I think it's great that you are considering embryo adoption. I'll be praying for you both during this time of decision making.
Hugs!

Trisha said...

I'm sorry about the test! But I'm really excited about you thinking about embryo adoption! I'll be praying for you guys as you make a decision. (I can't believe you kept it a secret from me) :)

hollytraveling said...

Oh how I wish pigs were flying. Sorry about the test, and according to the nurse at my RE, bleeding while pregnant happens pretty regularly.

And what a big announcement indeed. Wishing you the best on your next part of the journey and whatever it might bring.

Koelle said...

Okay, sent my email before I read your post!!!!! That is sooooo exciting!!! Definitely praying for you guys. Can't wait to see how God leads <3

rebecca said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog and your kind words. I'm thrilled to offer support and answer any questions you might have regarding EA. We were matched with a couple through Miracles Waiting, you may want to check out this option, a lot less expensive than through the NEDC and it allows you and the donor family more control over the arrangements. Wishing you the best of luck and you begin this new journey ((hugs))

Erica said...

Wow, I'm so excited to hear about your newest thoughts/plans! That sure is big news! I look forward to hearing more about your journey as it unfolds...