One Lovely Blog/Clomid 2ww

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

The rules of the “One Lovely Blog Award” are: Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award, and his or her blog link. Pass the award to 15 (I won't have 15 either!) other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

Jen and callmemama nominated me for this award! Thanks girls! I definitely won't have 15 to nominate, and this is list is a compilation of blogs I've been reading for a while and new ones I just found :)

Here are my nominees!
Grace in my Heart (reading for a while- adoption/IF)
The Mac's (reading for a while- loss of a child/new pregnancy)
A Baby Maybe (new find! IF/treatments)
Tales of My Follies (new find! IF/treatments)
Life According to Leah (new find! adoption)
The Martin's (new find! miscarriage/IF)
Eggcetera (reading for a while- IF/treatments)


So assuming today is ovulation day, we now begin the clomid #3 2ww!! I do have high hopes for this cycle, but if not, I am also looking forward to talking with my RE on Monday, a month off in September, and a new course of action in October. We are praying that the Lord might see fit to bless us with our first baby(s) in May 2010 (this cycle)...or June....or July..... etc!!

Yesterday was a very busy day for me- work deadlines and volunteering and trying to figure out what is wrong with my car (Mr. A took care of this part though...but I was still preoccupied with it!). I know that, being a 2003 (bought in 2002), my car isn't a spring chicken, but come on!! I thought cars were supposed to last super long times these days!! Mr. A took it to the shop yesterday morning, and they changed a sensor and thought that would fix the problem, and it did for a while, but when I drove it to pick up some pizza for dinner last night, the service light came back on when I started it up. I have to drive up to work tomorrow night, so I am praying they can fix it for good today!!

Volunteering at the pregnancy center continues to be a great reward to me. I saw two clients yesterday, both positive tests. The one girl was 8.5 weeks along, so she also had an ultrasound. It is amazing to talk to the clients who become pregnant so easily with no prenatals, no coffee-avoiding, no alcohol-avoiding, no cigarette-avoiding (not that I've had to do this), no husband, no praying, no fertility monitor peeing, and no temp checking. It reinforces to me that God truly has a plan for each of us, no matter if we understand it or not, no matter if we are perfect or not, no matter if anyone else thinks we deserve it or not. HE is in control, and HE has great plans of joy for each of us, as long as we entrust our lives to Him. Even the times we are tearful are redeemed through Him. He uses all things for good!

It also helps me remember that I'm not the only one carrying a cross in this world. The clients sit across from me carrying their cross of being unexpectedly pregnant, while I sit across from them carrying my cross of longing to see my belly grow.

It is an encouragement to tame any envy that I feel- it's not like when you become pregnant your life falls right into order and a Pot.tery Barn nursery falls out of the sky. The girls/couples who come into our center are facing real hard life struggles, and it gives me an opportunity to intensively reflect on all the blessings I have been given in my life: an awesome husband, a good education, a good job, a nice house, stable finances, just to name a few!

Because my day was going to be so busy, I laid in bed yesterday morning praying to God to help me get through the day. It was very heavy on my heart that the only way I'd get through the day was with Jesus by my side. If I thought of everything that "I" had to do, I began to feel overwhelmed, but the instant I remembered that God would be with me, I felt calm! I praise God for his mercy and love that are new each morning.

I better sign off now- hope this wasn't too rambly :) I wavered between doing two separate posts, but I've been wanting to put up the Lovely Blog nominees and can't wait another day! :) You all have been so encouraging to me during my journey- including the new blogs I read- just reading your journeys has helped me to feel not alone!


Leah said...

Thanks so much for the award, and I'm happy to find your blog. I love reading blogs and getting to know people this way. I'll be sure to add you to my blogroll so I can continue to find you. :-D

Be sure to add yourself to my google reader also. :-D

Anonymous said...

Good luck with this new 2ww :). I keep thinking that May WOULD be the perfect time to have a if there is a bad time!

Building A Nest said...

A summer 2010 baby would be wonderful! I know the 2ww is the worst so I hope your busy schedule carries on for a while to help keep your mind off of it. Good luck!

Jen said...

i hope the 3rd time's a charm for you with clomid! may would be a great month for a new little one!!!

Low Fat Lady said...

Thanks for the award ;) Good luck on your cycle of Clomid. I hope it works.

prayerfuljourney said...

I agree with you...I couldn't do this IF journey without Jesus by my side. He is my strength and rock. Since I'm doing medicated cycles now....I feel the 2ww is long...and I feel it's best to stay busy and keep your mind off of it. I'll be starting 2 grad night classes next week when my 2ww begins...I hope that helps me! BTW: I've found taking the Clo.mid in the evening is helpful too. Within a few hours, I'm pooped out and ready for bed. :) God Bless.

Baby Hungry said...

3rd time will be the charm...I just know it!

The Martins said...

A, thank you for your award, your prayers, and encouragement!

God is good! I am praying for you, trusting that God has good purposed for your family. Thanks for sharing about working at the pregnancy center, it was really good for me to think about the "other side." God bless!

Mrs Emilee said...

First of all, I'm so sorry for your struggles!

Secondly, God is the biggest reason why I'm getting through this infertility. I know He has a plan for each of us, and I know He's the only one who knows what's best. I just have to put it all in His hands, and I will be taken care of.

Way to have a positive attitude! Good luck with your BFP!

Anonymous said...

wow this post was such an encouragement to me. As I read about your work at the preg center, I thought "wow that must be hard to see all those people and not feel jealous" and then your thoughts in the following paragraphs were so TRUE! Thank you. You are right, it is such a blessing not to feel alone.

Thanks also for tagging me in your other post. :)

Stacey said...

Just want to say how much I admire your attitude and the love that you show to the women at the pregnancy center. I volunteered way back before I ever tried to have babies of my own, and I'm sure it must be a struggle to do while you're in the thick of it. Your heart really shows through here, and I know you are a blessing to them where they might often find judgment instead. You're awesome! :)

Thanks for the comments on my blog. I always appreciate them!

Hillary said...

This post was such an encouragement to me! We got an email with a pregnancy announcement this morning, and I was spiraling into "poor me" and jealousy. I read your post in my google reader and felt so convicted of my sin and reminded of God's gracious goodness through your work at the pregnancy center. Thank you!