u/s and etc.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Had my CD2 u/s today. Everything looks great! (Is it just me or did my lining stripe look thinner? Damn clomid. (As if I know what I'm talking about.)) AND my RE is upping my follistim to 250 units per night!! (Pick up jaw off the floor.) He said, "You were on 200 last time and got 2 great follicles and 1 pretty good one, but I'd like to see 3 or 4 great ones!" Well, alrighty, then! I'm game for increasing the targets!! C'mon TWINS.

(Kudos also to the resident (who I'm sure isn't reading) who actually manipulated the wand during the u/s... she was MUCH better than the last (male) resident!! No need to try to harpoon the infertile gal on CD2 when she is already dealing with period cramps. Really.)

If you could pray that I get the new meds soon- I just have 1 900iu cartridge, and that is not going to last me long doing 250iu per night!!

I am definitely going to pray about volunteering to start a RESOLVE group in my area, as I don't think there is one. My biggest hesitation is that I think we are just about at the end of the RE road, meaning, we are going to do this IUI, and if it doesn't work, I'm pretty sure we'll move to IVF. (I say "pretty sure" because we are really trying to take this day-by-day, praying for guidance.) And if God doesn't bless us after both of those, I think we will likely start saving for adoption. (We do have a savings account just for babymaking stuff, and it does have enough in there for one IVF cycle, but at this point, we do not see it as a judicious way to spend our money to keep doing IVF cycle after IVF cycle after IVF cycle. Not that it isn't what others might feel is appropriate for them- everyone is different, and this is just what Mr. A feels is best for us. But it will be emptied after an IVF cycle, and saving $30k for adoption is not exactly an overnight process....)

It is hard for me to talk about "what if this doesn't work" kind of scenarios, because in my heart I want to believe that this IUI will work and we will welcome our first little one(s) in October. But I guess infertility brings out the doubt in all of us. Wish it wasn't that way.

But Mr. A and I are both planning-kind-of-people. So that is what we do. Regardless of the fact that God's baby plans have yet to line up with ours....probably because His are so awesome that they take alot of time to get organized...

26 comments:

AplusB said...

Glad to hear the baseline appt. went well and you're off an running on a new cycle. I really hope the upped dose of Follistim does the trick for you!!

Becky said...

Wow, that is a good amount of Follistim. I will be praying it arrives soon. I have some leftover I could overnight you if you get in a jam (I have actually been meaning to donate it and still haven't gotten around to it). Glad things are looking good and I am praying for you as always.

I think it is great that you and Mr. A are setting limits as far as when to stop. We did that as well and we were both ready to stop once we got to the point at which we said we would stop treatment. Of course, I am hoping and praying it never gets to that point for you guys.

Have you looked on Stepping Stones website for a support group in your area? They are Bethany's infertility ministry. I think it is great you are considering starting a support group. I started one when I was in Florida through my church. It basically ended up being me and one other gal, but it was great to have someone to talk to and go to lunch with who knew what I was going through. I have really been missing that here in Maryland.

Emily said...

Glad to hear your appointment went well! Keep in mind with the medications that your clinic may have some donate meds you may be able to get your hands on if you run out! I am crossing my fingers that this is your cycle!!

Hillary said...

Glad you're off and running for a new cycle!

I totally hear you about the plan, and ours was very much the same (although our clinic has a 3-cycle discount package, so we would do (or would have done, I'm not sure which) 3 IVF cycles. I think God through us through a loop with our plan, though, but maybe that will be the path we still end up taking?? Who knows, but I am praying THIS IUI is the one that brings you a healthy baby, A!!!

BelowAverageAthlete said...

I am praying that this is the cycle for you!

Shanny said...

Glad the appt went well, Clomid did a number on my lining while I was on it so I'm even more glad that you are not on it. The dr upping your follistim? Awesome. Just awesome, come on twins indeed =)

Ashley said...

Just FYI (and I know nothing about your situation so forgive me if I'm being out of line), embryo adoption only costs $4-6,000. Might be something you could consider.

Noelle said...

I love what you said about God having extra special plans for your kids. That is beautiful.

I pray that this is the cycle for you. I love the way that you are trusting in God. It is very admirable.

Thank you for your support on my blog. I really, really appreciate it.

Noelle said...

I wanted to let you know that I followed your suggestion about physically giving it over to God. Please hop on over to my blog to check it out. I can't thank you enough.

Basic Girl said...

Sounds like a great appt, yay for getting right back into cycling! And double yay for the increased meds (and twins, lol), awesome!! Hoping it does the trick and this is your month!!!

Praying for Hope said...

Well, congrats on the gentle u/s and that start of a new cycle. Why is it that IF makes an increase in meds sound wonderful? With anything else, it would be a terrible thing to hear.

Leah said...

I'm always amazed by your attitude. And I think you're right. . . His plans are so wonderful that they do take a lot of time. But I have a great feeling that whatever plans are in place, will be the perfect plan for you and Mr. A. :)

And yay for upping follistim. I'm hoping you get 3 or 4 beautiful follies this cycle. :-D

Jane said...

It sounds like you have a really promising cycle ahead of you! Good luck!

Katie said...

So glad that your baseline u/s went well and that things are a-go for this next IUI. I'll say some good thoughts that your meds get here soon and you don't run out. Twins would be amazing! :)

Let us know what you decide about the RESOLVE group. For what it's worth, I think you would be a great group leader.

Priscilla said...

Praying that this is the last IUI and it brings you success in the form of a beautiful baby (or two) in October!!! xx

TeeJay said...

Hooray for increasing your meds to increase your chances. Every little bit helps. Isn't it a shame how money always has to be our main planning component? I'm very lucky that I got a pretty good discount on my IVF or we wouldn't have been able to do it. Keep on planning and hopefully God's plan will line up with yours VERY soon!

callmemama said...

I hope this new dose of Follistim brings you a baby (or two?)!

Melissa said...

I'll be praying for you, the meds to show up and this cycle!

And yep, the female residents are so much nicer & more gentle on us gals than the guys. It's not a joystick!

Stacey said...

I'm holding onto hope that this next cycle will be successful -- even beyond what we hope! Praying for you.

Jeremiah 29:11 said...

Praying for you. I would LOVE twins too! :)

brigittemarie said...

PRAYERS for youuu!!! I will start coming up with creative name combos--Jude and Judy, Anna and Hannah, Dominic and Dominique...Clare and Clara--Keep those in mind :)

JC said...

I'm glad your u/s went well and I hope the extra Follistim does the trick! Praying for you!

inallthingsgood said...

hope this cycle is the one! I hate the money thing too -- with adoption and treatments. I have a friend that likens my infertility journey to what it felt like for her to get married later than many of our friends. I don't think the analogy works -- and in part because in the waiting-for-a-husband years, you don't have to juggle all this medical/financial stress!

I do have a question about your IUIs, if you don't mind. I went to a new doctor this week and he recommended I try an IUI cycle, but he didn't really give any reason -- not like he found particular problems with my cervix or cervical mucus. I'm just wondering if it's just something they do, or if it is meant to address particular issues. and what are the increased chances?

I'm not going to do one next month for other reasons, but I'm trying to get it all straight in my head.

the misfit said...

Yeah. I mean, with all the other big things in my life, in retrospect, it's been clear why that was the right time, or path, or weird thing that looked random and was actually super-important. But I can't even IMAGINE what this would look like in retrospect. I get pregnant in another year or two, and I look back and realize...I had terminal cancer and didn't know it, and the treatment would've killed the kid? My dh will be hit by a truck in a year's time, and widowed and childless is somehow better than a single mom? I wouldn't have loved the kid as much if I had been a healthy normal person? I was able to keep my RE from financial ruin? No, really, I give up. No idea how this is supposed to make more sense after this much delay. But if you find out that it does - more power to you.

ventingvagina said...

glad the u/s went more smoothly than last time.

good luck with the increased dosage. i hope you get the meds you need! i have a coupon for a free follistim cartridge. i'll be happy to send it to you if you need it!

i hope you don't have to move on to IVF, but if you do i can tell you that it's not that bad. :)

but you won't even need to worry about it because this IUI will work!

Rachel said...

Our RE has a shared risk program for IVF, but I'm praying we won't make it to that point. Thank you for your encouraging blog :)