You Understand!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I hope no one minded the somber post on Tuesday! It is amazing how many of you identified with what I was thinking- you understand! I also loved the quotes from Leah and Jane about how struggle/adversity bring out qualities that might not have been revealed otherwise. And I totally agree! I, for one, know that my faith has become so much stronger throughout this journey, and I sort of cringe to think of where my prayer/spiritual life would have been today if we'd conceived the first month we tried. As a Christian, I think the concept of those quotes is underwritten by God's promise to use everything for good! If anything, looking for the good amidst the struggle takes your mind off the struggle, doesn't it?

And, lest you be worried, I assure you I haven't lost any of my outrageous optimism!! It is still alive and thriving, especially with my progesterone being 20.5 yesterday at 7dpo!! I know it's not the highest progesterone ever, but I'm pretty sure that could sustain a little one, right? I am tempted to ask for another test tomorrow (9dpo), but I don't know if that would be obnoxious of me, especially since I'm still taking the supplements.... I might have to start referring to myself as the squeaky wheel... ;-)

I am very hopeful that the continued absorption of progesterone is helping our little one to grow. I did have some pretty localized pain the night of 6dpo and the morning of 7dpo, kind of like if someone poked you, and I have some mild achiness of the bbs, and I have been so tired, but it is still early, and all of these things could be from the progesterone supplements. But never fear, my hope is still floating along!!

On Tuesday, I got a call out of the blue to see if I would speak at a local church this coming Sunday (Sanctity of Life Sunday) for the pregnancy center. I have never done this before, and I have no idea what prompted them to ask me, but I definitely agreed! I am excited to visit a new church and share what our center does for our community. We are forming a new class of trainee's, so I hope that maybe my words will speak to someone's heart and magnify whatever calling God has for them in our center. As I was praying about it, though, I realized that this Sunday, I could be carrying a new life within me as I speak. Whoa. How amazing would that be. And yet, God is in the business of amazing, so it wouldn't surprise me!

And at the same time I write that, I know in my heart that there are people who've suffered greatly very recently- from miscarriages and failed cycles, to the citizens of Ha.iti. My prayer list has gotten very long, but I love it. As my friend T's pastor says: "You need the prayers, and I need the practice!" To those of you suffering, I don't know what exactly it's like to be in your shoes, but I can imagine, and I can pray for you as you heal. Be assured that God is with you, and He does have amazing plans for you, even though it might not feel like it now. "Cast all your anxieties on Him, for He cares about you" (1 Peter 5:7)!!!

16 comments:

Leah said...

Your progesterone levels sound wonderful! I don't know what your clinic says is normal, but mine says something like anything over 10 is great after ovulation. So, 20 is excellent. :-D Thinking of you. :-D

Al said...

Great number! I hope your little one is thriving in there and you have great news in a few days. Hope this is your cycle!

Ann - Building a Nest said...

Good luck with your speaking at the local church. That is awesome and I know you will do a great job.

My reference numbers for P4: no medication, over 10; with medication over 15 (but RE prefers it to be 20 or higher). In sum, A+.

Rach said...

Yay for the progesterone!! Cant wait for a few more days to hear your results. Fingers crossed and lots of prayers that it's positive!!

Katie said...

That is a good number! I've always heard that anything over 15 is good. I hope the number continues to rise and that a little bean is snuggling in for a nine-month stay. :)

Melissa said...

There's a reason why they asked you to speak! You're always so uplifting and your Faith is just so awe inspiring. Go you! {and good luck too!}

Those #s kick ass!

Shanny said...

Your progesterone level was pretty good! I'm sending you lots of implantation dust.

Its completely amazing that you really could be carrying a new life when you speak at the church, amazing. Hope its true =)

JC said...

YAY for the progesterone results, that's a great number! And congrats on being chosen to speak, you will do a wonderful job, and I agree there is a reason they chose you. =)

Jane said...

I think your "symptoms" might be a very good sign! It's still a little early, but sounds like there might be something going on down there! And great news on the progesterone!

callmemama said...

Your progesterone sounds great! I've heard that 20+ is optimal for pregnancy, so you're right on track :).

Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

the misfit said...

Going to agree wholeheartedly that your optimism is OUTRAGEOUS. I thought at first that you might be just putting a good face on things, but I rapidly got the idea that this is really how you feel about life. HOW DO YOU DO THAT?

Basic Girl said...

Loving that progesterone number...YAY for the supps! Hopefully they're giving your body that extra little push to get your bean to STICK!!! Thinking of you!

Priscilla said...

You're so great, A!!! Sounds like you might have had some implantation sensations too....6pdo....PERFECT!! Sending prayers!!

Becky said...

Your previous post really hit me as well, especially the part about "post-it's of Psalm verses of hope and despair." Good for you for sending a reply. I think becoming more assertive has been another positive thing that has come out of infertility for me. And definitely a deeper spiritual/prayer life.

I am praying the progesterone does the trick and this is the cycle God blesses you with your little one. Your faith has inspired and ministered to so many people, including me!.

Hillary said...

First of all, wonderful progesterone number! yay!

Secondly, how awesome is it that you get to speak at a church about the work your clinic is doing. I am praying for God to give you the words - keep us posted!

ventingvagina said...

progesterone numbers look good! i hope this is it for you! when are you testing?!